Last night I was in the mood to write and I went to bed. Actually I stayed up pretty late as I was sucked into a book called the "Magician." Not much of a fiction fan but this is keeping me mildly entertained. I was trying to remember the greater moments of live today and failed. Sure, lots of big questions to be answered but really, what exactly is all of this for anyway? A greater good? A greater being of self? Who is self? Who is greater the being or the self? Can we separate the two into equal but distinctly different parts? Are they like oil and water and need violent shaking to become more unified or do they just look the Exxon Valdez floating along in the water. A complete mess of crude oil covering everything with a sticky backing reminding us of death and the power we possess to accidentally make matters worse. Perhaps it is this constant threat of self that wards the being into becoming a mass of homogeneous thinking inertia enabling the two of us (self and being) to function without driving the other mad. The self is this vividly fun creature capable of conceiving ideas and fostering notions of geniality. The being however is this unharnessed energy of life that propels each of us subconsciously. The key to ultimate triumph would have to be when the self learns about the being and suddenly they work in unison. The being putting the self in the perfect place at the perfect moment and the self harvests each opportunity presented by the being when suddenly there is this uniform notion of one and emotions, excitement, logic, and maybe even some stranger power takes charge and enlightens the mind to the level of God like powers within driving us to become complete madmen or a guineas. Maybe it is the being that should harness the self and become master of the dignified thinker? But if the being harnesses the self then one could argue the logical idealist known as the brain would have been conquered by something that doesn't really exist. Maybe that's it, we are all just conquered by nothing and left to think about ourselves while not caring about anyone elses being?